Sometimes has he been known to gaze afar Watching the coming of the evening-star, And as it progress'd toward the middle sky, Like the still twilight's lonely deity, Would fancy that a spirit resided there, A gentle spirit and young with golden hair, And eyes as blue as the blue dome above, And a voice as tender as the sound of love.
Some months thus pass'd among the wrecks of Rome,
And seldom thought he of the fearful doom On which he used to ponder: still he felt That he alone amidst the many dwelt, Lonely; but why, he cared not, or forgot, The jibings cast upon his early lot. One morning as he lay half listlessly Within the shadow of a column, where His forehead met such gusts of cooling air As the bright Summer knows in Italy, A gorgeous cavalcade went thundering by, Dusty and worn with travel: as it pass'd Some said the great Count had returned, at last,
From his long absence upon foreign lands; 'Twas told that many countries he had seen, (He and his lady daughter) and had been A long time journeying on the Syrian sands, And visited holy spots, and places where The Christian roused the Pagan from his lair, And taught him charity and creeds divine, By spilling his bright blood in Palestine.
Vitelli and his child returned at last, After some years of wandering. Julia Had been betrothed and widow'd: she had pass'd
Of thoughts unutter'd (a heart-eating care) Pale as a statue. When he met her first He gazed and gasped as tho' his heart would burst.
Her figure came before him like a dream Revealed at morning, and a sunny gleam Broke in upon his soul and lit his eye With something of a tender prophecy. And was she then the shape he oft had seen, By day and night,-she who had such strange power
Over the terrors of his wildest hour? And was it not a phantom that had been Wandering about him? Oh with what deep fear
He listened now, to mark if he could hear The voice that lulled him, but she never spoke!
For in her heart her own young love awoke From its long slumber, and chained down her tongue,
And she sat mute before him! he, the while, Stood feasting on her melancholy smile, Till o'er his eyes a dizzy vapour hung And he rushed forth into the freshening air, Which kissed and played about his temples bare,
And he grew calm. Not unobserved he fled, For she who mourned him once as lost and dead,
Saw with a glance, as none but women see, His secret passion, and home silently She went rejoicing, 'till Vitelli asked Wherefore her spirit fell, and then she tasked
Her fancy for excuse wherewith to hide Her thoughts and turn his curious gaze aside.
That fateful day passed by; and then there
Another and another, and the flame Of love burnt brightly in Colonna's breast, But while it filled it robbed his soul of rest; At home, abroad, at morning, and at noon In the hot sultry hours, and when the moon Shone in the cool fresh sky, and shaped those dim
From bondage into liberty, and they Who knew the bitter husband she had wed, Rejoiced to learn that he indeed was dead. She had been sacrificed in youth, to one She never loved; but he she loved was gone, And so it matter'd not: 'tis true some tears Stained her pale cheek at times in after-years, And much unkindness from the man on whom She had bestowed her beauty, drew a gloom Around her face, and curtained up in shade | And shadowy figures once so dear to him,— The eyes that once like sunny spirits played. Wheree'er he wandered she would come upon But he was dead:-Sailing along the sea, His mind, a phantom-like companion; His pleasure-barque was gliding pleasantly, Yet, with that idle dread with which the heart When sudden winds arose, and mighty waves Stifles its pleasures, he would ever depart Were put in motion, and deep yawning graves And loiter long amongst the streets of Rome, Opened on every side with hideous roar: When she, he feared, might visit at his home. He screamed and struggled, and was seen no A strange and sad perverseness; he did fear To part with that pale hope which shone at at last
This was the tale.-Orsini's titles fell Upon a student youth, scarce known before, Who took the princely name and wore it well.
And Julia saw the youth she loved again: But he was now the great Colonna's heir, And she whom he had left so young and fair, A few short years ago, was grown, with pain
Glimmering upon his fortunes. Many a year Burthen'd with evil o'er his head had pass'd, And stamped upon his brow the marks of care, And so he seemed as old before his time: And many would pretend that in his air There was a gloom that had its birth in crime. 'Tis thus the wretched are trod down.— Despair
Doth strike as deep a furrow in the brain, As mischief or remorse; and doubt will pain And scar the heart like sin accomplished. But slander ever hath hung upon the head Of silent sorrow, and corroding shame Preys on its heart, and its defenceless name Is blotted by the bad, until it flies From the base world a willing sacrifice.
Where he might read his destiny. Her bright
Heaven's many constellations shone thr night!
And from the distant river a gentle tune. Such as is uttered in the month of June, By brooks, whose scanty streams have a guished long For rain, was heard ;-a tender, lapsing se2T Sent up in homage to the quiet moon.
He mused, 'till from a garden, near whee wall
He leant, a melancholy voice was heard
OH POWER of Love so fearful and so fair-Singing alone, like some poor widow-bird Life of our life on earth, yet kin to care- Oh! thou day-dreaming Spirit, who dost look Upon the future, as the charmed book Of Fate were open'd to thine eyes alone- Thou who dost cull, from moments stolen and gone
Into eternity, memorial things To deck the days to come-thy revellings Were glorious and beyond all others: Thou Didst banquet upon beauty once; and now The ambrosial feast is ended!-Let it be. Enough to say, It was.-Oh! upon me From thy o'ershadowing wings ethereal Shake odorous airs, so may my senses all Be spell-bound to thy service, beautiful
That casts unto the woods her desert call | It was the voice-the very voice that re Long in his brain that now so sweetly sung He passed the garden-bounds and lightly trød. Checking his breath, along the grassy sol (By buds and blooms half-hidden which the breeze
Had ravished from the clustering orange trees)
Until he reached a low pavilion, where He saw a lady pale, with radiant hair Over her forehead, and in garments white: A harp was by her, and her fingers light Carelessly o'er the golden strings were flung: Then, shaking back her locks, with upward eye,
And lips that dumbly moved, she seemed to try To catch an old disused melody- A sad Italian air it was, which I Remember in my boyhood to have heard. And still -(tho' here and there perhaps a work Be now forgot) I recollect the song. Which might to any lovelorn tale belong
Whither, ah! whither is my lost love stray- ing- Upon what pleasant land beyond the sea? Oh! ye winds, now playing Like airy spirits round my temples free, Fly and tell him this from me:
Tell him, sweet winds, that in my woman's bosom
My young love still retains its perfect power. Or, like the summer-blossom, That changes still from bud to the full-blow flower,
Grows with every passing hour.
Say (and say gently) that, since we twe parted,
How little joy-much sorrow I have knows Only not broken-hearted Because I muse upon bright moments gone. And dream and think of him alone.
The lady ended, and Colonna knelt Before her with outstretched arms: He felt That she, whom in the mountains far away His heart had loved so much, at last was his. Is there, oh! is there in a world like this (He spoke) such joy for me? Oh! Julia, Art thou indeed no phantom, which my brain Has conjured out of grief and desperate pain- And shall I then from day to day behold Thee again, and still again? Oh! speak to me, Julia-and gently, for I have grown old In sorrow ere my time: I kneel to thee. -Thus with a passionate voice the lover broke
Upon her solitude, and while he spoke In such a tone as might a maiden move, Her fear gave place to pride, and pride to love.
Quick are fond women's sights, and clear their powers,
They live in moments years, an age in hours; Thro' every movement of the heart they run In a brief period with a courser's speed, And mark, decide, reject; but if indeed They smile on us-oh! as the eternal sun Forms and illuminates all to which this earth (Impregnate by his glance) hath given birth, Even so the smile of woman stamps our fates, And consecrates the love it first creates.
At first she listened with averted eye, And then, half turning towards him, tenderly She marked the deep sad truth of every tone, Which told that he was hers and all her own; And saw the hectic flush upon his cheek, (That silent language which the passions speak
So eloquently well) and so she smiled Upon him. With a pulse rapid and wild And eyes lit up with love and all his woes Abandoned or forgot, he lightly rose, And placed himself beside her. Julia! My own, my own, for you are mine, he said; Then on her shoulder drooped his feverish head,
And for a moment he seemed dying away: But he recovered quick. Oh! Marcian, I fear-she softly sighed :-Again, again, Speak, my divinest love, again, and shower The music of your words which have such
She spoke: Dear Marcian I- How soft she
Over the hills at morning was her smile) Nay you must listen silently, awhile. Dear Marcian, you and I for many years Have suffered: I have bought relief with tears;
But, my poor friend, I fear a misery Beyond the reach of tears has weighed on thee. What 'tis I know not, but (now calmly mark My words) 'twas said that-that thy mind was dark,
And the red fountains of thy blood (as Heaven Is stained with the dying lights of Even) Were tainted-that thy mind did wander far, At times, a dangerous and erratic star, Which like a pestilence sweeps the lower sky, Dreaded by every orb and planet nigh. This hath my father heard. Oh! Marcian, He is a worldly and a cruel man, And made me once a victim; but again It shall not be. I have had too much of pain, Too much for such short hours as life affords, And I would fain from out the golden hoards Of joy pluck some fair ornament, at last, To gild my life with—but my life hath past. Her head sank on her bosom: gently he Kissed off the big bright tears of misery. Alas! that ever such glittering drops should flow
(Bright as tho' born of Happiness) from woe! He soothed her for a time, and she grew calm, For lovers' language is the surest balm To hearts that sorrow much that night they parted
With kisses and with tears, but both lighthearted,
And many a vow was made and promise spoke,
And well believed by both and never broke: They parted, but from that time often met In that same garden when the sun had set, And for awhile Colonna's mind forgot, In the fair present hour, his future lot.
To those o'er whom pale Destiny with his
sting Hangs, a mere glance, a word, a sound will bring
The bitter future with its terrors, all Black and o'erwhelming. Like Colonna's star, Tho' hidden for a while or banish'd far, The time will come,-at prayer or festival, Slumber or morning-sport or mid-day task; The soul can never fly itself, nor mask The face of Fate with smiles- How oft by some strange ill of body or mind Man's fine and piercing sense is stricken blind; No matter then how slight the shadows be, The veil is thick to him who cannot see. Solid and unsubstantial, false and true, Are Fear and Fate; but to that wretched few, Who call the dim phantasmas from their
And bow before their own creations, slaves, They are immortal- holy--fix'd-- supreme! He uttered: Nay-(and as the daylight breaks | No more of this.-Now pass I to my theme.
The hours pass'd gently,-even happily Awhile; tho' sometimes o'er Colonna's brow There shone a meaning strange, as tho' his doom
Flashed like a light across his memory, And left behind a momentary gloom; This would he smile away, and then forget, And then again, sighing, remember: yet, Over pale Julia's face that shadow cast A shadow like itself, and when it passed Its sad reflection vanished. Lovers' eyes Bright mirrors are where Love may look and
Its gladness, grief, beauty, deformity, Pictured in all their answering colours plain, So long as the true life and soul remain; For when the substance shrinks the shadow flies.
Thus lived Colonna, 'till to common eyes He seemed redeem'd and rescued from despair; And often would he catch the joyous air Of the mere idler, and the past would seem, To him and others, like a terrible dream
Dissolved: 'twas then a clearer spirit grew In his black eye, and over the deep blue Of Julia's a soft happier radiance hung, Like the dark beauty from the starlight flung
Upon the world, which tells Heaven's breast
Within, and that abroad no cloud is near.
Once-only once-('twas in a lonely hour) He felt the presence of his evil power Weighing upon him, and he left his home In silence, amidst fresher scenes to roam. -'Twas said that he did wander far and wide O'er desert heaths, and on the Latian plains Bared his hot forehead to the falling rains, Which there bring death; and, with a heart allied
To gentle pleasures still, on the green hill's
And then unto the rocks of Tivoli He went. Alas! for gone AntiquityIts holy and mysterious temple where The Sybil spread abroad her hoary hair, And spoke her divine oracles. Her home Is crumbling into dust, and sheeted foam Now sparkles where her whitened trees hung;
And where her voice, like Heaven's, freely flung
Unto the echoes, now fierce torrents flow. Filling with noise and spray the dell below Not useless are ye yet, ye rocks and woodOf Tivoli, altho' long since have vanished From your lost land its gorgeous palaces And tho' the spirit of the place be banishet The earth for ever-yet your silver floods Remain, (immortal music) and the bree Brings health and freshness to your wavin: trees.
And he first sank upon her bosom fair:Her white and delicate fingers now by his Were held and not withdrawn, and with. kiss
He thanked her, yet with idle question tri To cheat away the grief she could not h He felt that he had planted in her heart The seeds of grief; and could he then depar And leave the lady of his love in tears
Would stretch his length upon the evening-Weighed down (and for his sake) by sile Shedding sweet tears to see the great sun Away like a dream of boyhood. Darkness
He could not. Oh he felt the pleading l Of her who loved him so, nor could he brea Still to be thought a frantie. Thou sha know,
Dearest, he said, my hidden story now; Forgive me that before I told thee not: He pondered then, as to regain a thought. I thought I wished to think the thing forzet At length, with a firm tongue, (but mingle
Rose from my heart and made my eyesight dim
And my brain turn, and palsied every limb, And the world stood in stupor for a time. Yet from my fiery cloud I heard of crime, Of parent's-brother's hate, and of one lost For want of kindness.—Then?—ay, then there came
The rushing of innumerable wings By me, and sweets, such as the summer flings,
Fell on my fainting senses, and I crept Into some night-dark place, and long I slept; I slept, until a rude uneasy motion Stirred me: what passed I knew not then,
and yet Methought the air blew freshly, and the ocean Danced with its bright blue waters: I forget Where all this happened; but at last my brain
Seemed struggling with itself, awhile in vain. There was a load on it, like hopeless care Upon the mind- -a dreary heavy load, And, now and then, it seemed as shapes did goad
My soul to recollection,-or despair.
"Clearer and clearer now from day to day The figures floated on my sight, but when I moved they vanished. Then, a grim array, Like spectres from the graves of buried men, Came by in silence: each upon his face Wore a wild look, as tho' some sad disgrace Had stamped his life (or thus I thought) with sorrow. They vanished too; but ever on the morrow They came again, with greater sadness, 'till I spoke; then one of them gave answer- shrill
Asblasts that whistle thro' the dungeon's grate On bleak December-nights, when in her state Comes the white Winter.-Look! (I thus translate
The sounds it utter'd)-Look, the phantom
Upon thine ancestry departed-dead. Each one thou seest hath left his gaping tomb Empty and comes to warn thee of thy doom: And each, whilst living, bore within his brain A settled madness: start not-so dost thou: Thou art our own, and on thy moody brow There is the invisible word ne'er writ in vain. Look on us all we died as thou shalt die, The victims of our heart's insanity. From sire to son the boiling rivers ran Thro' every vein and 'twas alike with all: It touched the child and trampled down the
Once thou hast been a mockery unto man, But thus, at least, it shall not be again. Behold! where yon red rolling star doth shine From out the darkness: that fierce star is thine,
Thy Destiny, thy Spirit, and its power Shall guard and rule thee to thy latest hour; And never shall it quit thy side, but be Invisible to all and dim to thee, Save when the fever of the soul shall rise, And then that light shall flash before thine eyes,
And thou shalt then remember that thy fate Is-murder. Thus upon the silence broke The spectre's hollow words; but while it spoke,
Its pale lip never moved, nor did its eye Betray intelligence. With sweeping state, Over the ground the train then glided by, And vanish'd,-vanish'd. Then methought I 'woke.
"It was no dream, for often since that hour The star has flashed, and I have felt its power,
('Twas in my moodier moments) and my soul Seemed languishing for blood, and there did roll
Rivers of blood beside me, and my hands, As tho' I did obey my Fate's commands, Were smeared and sanguine, and my throb- bing brow Grew hot and blistered with the fire within, And my heart withered with a secret sin, And my whole heart was tempested: it grew Larger methought with passion-even now I feel it swell within me, and a flood Of fiery wishes such as man ne'er knew Seem to consume me. Sometimes I have stood
Looking at heaven-for Hope, with these sad eyes,
In vain-for I was born a sacrifice: What hope was there for me, a murderer? What lovely? nothing-yes, I err, I err. Yes,-mixed with these wild visionings, a form
Descended, fragile as a summer-cloud, And with her gentle voice she stilled the
I never saw her face and yet I bowed Down to the dust, as savage men, they say, Adore the sun in countries far away. I felt the music of her words like balm Raining upon my soul, and I grew calm As the great forest-lion that lay down At Una's feet, without a single moan, | Vanquish❜d by love; or as the herds that hung Their heads in silence when the Thracian sung.
And every eye that, with its dead dull ball, Seems as it stared upon thee now, was bright-I never saw her, never, but her voice As thine is, with the true transmitted light. Madness and pain of heart shall break thy
rest, And she shall perish whom thou lovest the best.
Was the whole world to me. It said: Rejoice! For I am come to love thee, youth, at last, To recompense thy pains and sorrow past. No longer now, amongst the mountains high, Shalt thou over thy single destiny
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